A Break

Jasmine shook her head again without looking at Harry or Sirius,"No. I betrayed the Death Eaters and I deserve to be punished. Torture me Sirius but, please don't kill me. I would much rather live my life as an empty shell than as a coward that I currently am. Just punish me and get it over with."

Jasmine didn't look at Harry or Sirius. She just sat on her knees just holding her wand and muttering,"I'm so sorry Draco. I'm not the girl you thought I was. Please forgive me, my love."

Harry kept an unreadable face as Sirius begun to speak "leave jasmine alone..shes not even suposed to be here.."

As Sirius continued to talk Harry glanced brifely towards jasmine and Sirius then that of the dead boy laying on the floor, then back towards Sirius "i deffiantly don't want that..theres nothing you get out of it apart from pain..and yes your right, a normal life whatever normal is..but that dosn't quaver my view of wanting one.."

"Valuable gift?" he laughed almost bitterly "what exactly is the gift for?"

for a moment he pondered the last of Sirius speech "so i have been told a few times but exactly how? i have no experinece nothing and yet how the hell am i "apparently" suposed to destroy him your right, a 16 year old against a..how ever old he is.." Harry felt the doubts begin to resurface from before

"you could of got somewhere with the order..and they where your friends..still are..they still miss you talk about you..Grimmauld is pratically a grave yard now..empty..lifeless..only ocassionaly do i go..but otherwise..no."

Jasmine still did not look at Harry or Sirius. She took a deep breath and said,"You're pathetic, Sirius. Why do you want to destroy all of the people who love and care about you? I'll tell you why because, you have no idea what it's like to love or to be loved. You are just so full of anger and hatred and someday it'll destroy you. Yes, I admit that I too hate muggles with a burning passion but, they do not deserve the way they have been treated by our own kind. You're a monster, Sirius. You should have just stayed dead."

"i never whished to be a wizard..i never knew i was one till i was 11, and i would of been happy to stay a muggle for the rest of my life then there would be no death..no betrays..no suffering..and no paths all ready layed out for you..." he spoke choosing his words carefully

"no your wrong..i don't think i admit nither wizards or muggles are better then each other all the same to me..equal.. nothing we do or they do are humane and i also admit i hate that too..but what can we do about it that is how they live there life being inhumane and that is the way i plan not to live as"

"yet you use unforgivibles like there an everyday spell..they where named unforgiviables for a reason..they are only from what i heard to be used if nessasarily but then again you Death eaters would listen to anything that has power and has killed? rigth?, not surprising really..to think i even looked up to you as a father figure..how sorely mistaken was i?"

"it's amazing that somthing so small can take something so great isn't it..?"

"your idea of the unforgivables is diffrent to the real meaning..you use them to cause suffering and pain to thouse who don't deserve it you and riddle both the same pick on anyone who is weaker, defenseless that to me is the meaning of cowardness"

meeting Sirius cold gaze Harry replied "power is what will destroy you in the end the only sacrifice your making, will make..is you life. Death again? could you do that again? i would be more then happy to watch..that is your choice what you sacrifice"

"Voldemort lives on power to keep himself alive he is afraid and you are even if you refuse to admit it it's obvious that you too suffer as much as any other Voldemort is living your life making your decions if you go wrong you get told of simple..if you call that a leader then you have your ideas are wrong"

Harry couldn't help but let out a snide laugh "an organisation for the greater good? you call killing people for fun for the greater good? if we all went for the same goal in the world then what type of world would it be? there would be no life no future you would just stay there..stand there not moving watching as the world goes by that is not a goal to aim for a goal would be such as a family..a job, a career then again what would you know about that? nothing is what.."

" a life wich is in no need to be ended..a life ended out of your spite and sick pleasure..your life to no one means anything...i bet your a mere piece of equipment to Voldemort so he can gain what he wants then once he has it..you would be nothing to him"

Jasmine had enough of this. Sirius was giving her a headache. She disapparated to Hogsmede to get away from the confrontation between Harry and Sirius.

Harry stood silent and watched as Sirius mocked him harry had been used to it, ow was this any diffrent, maybe thought Harry that he happens to be my mass murdring godfather or so suposed to be.

"yes destructions that happen to be yourself or haven't you thought through enough?" harry said with now an edge of confidence why should he be afriad of this..man.. a stranger.. and a coward, why be afraid of someone who had once been his godfather who harry had even once looked up to in spite of himself, it was time for a change.

"yes so you sacrificed yourself you should make a hobby of it really, prehaps i will be the one to push you through the veil or maybe kill you mysefl but as we know i'm not as cold hearted as you of course..and if you remember i wouldn't of gone there if i didn't care about you so really it's to do with that so called "bond" if i didn't find out you where my suposed godfather i wouldn't of cared about you and i wouldn't of worried about you"

"shame you didn't stay dead then isn't it? and known as the "hero"? no i would say more along the lines of a coward to be more spefic" Harry couldn't stop over the year the feeling of betrail and lonliness came the better of him and a now a feeling of braveness and confidence had surfaced much to Harry's strage surprise

"your name has earned you nothing only the means of a backstabber and a cold hearted muder i think you have been overwhlemed by your years of lonliness and lack of friends only having Kreacher to talk to maybe you have truly gone mad?" Sirius lagh sent an odd chill down the back of Harry's spin making a small cringing sensation spread over himself but he remained upright.

"i don't see why not, your not exactly useful anymore are you? and correction i did have an attachment to my godfather but as you so put it your not my godfather and gladly you never will be becasue you are just some twisted withered old man hiding behind a mask of some noble and caring godfather" Harry then too returned the smug expression he knew himself he was right.

seeing Sirius wand aim in his direction Harry also drew his wand maybe this was the end but it wasn't the end for him he would finally and hopefully let his true godfather have some well earnt respectful rest.

Harry started point blankly to Sirius and surprisingly he wasn't afraid "you are not my family.." he kept the same thought in his head this man is not my godfather, never will be..let Sirius rest..let him be free, let him rest, let him rest..

as he saw the firey shape of the dog Sirius had so often took the fire crackled and burned as the light from it shon it's heat was intense for it's distance at one point Harry had to even shield his eyes from the light, once the fire had came to a constant light and flame Harry straighten himself and he glanced around the place there truly was no escape.

"After you.." Harry said bitterly unblinking as he met the mans cold soul piecing stare, the flames light reached harry's eyes they became a steady darker green with the light within them sorrow and dentermination shon.